Monday, November 17, 2014

24 Days Post Op

24 Days Post-Op (I don't know how many "days" I count):

I've been good today. It's really been a roller coaster that I wasn't expecting. Yesterday was awful. I just felt crappy. I slept a lot. I cried for really no reason. I didn't really hurt but I was just miserable. Today, I've been good, happy, making things, etc. and only hurting a little.

I fully expected the pain and stiffness. I knew that it would take time for me to regain my motions and things. I did not expect to be so tired. I didn't expect to have to sit down for half an hour after walking to the mailbox. I didn't expect to be exhausted from sewing a little. I didn't expect to be so stinking tired. I just got up and went to water the dogs (two dogs, indoors, food & water bowls about 20 feet away.) I feel like I walked to the neighbors and back.

I am very proud of myself for being dressed in real clothing for over 12 hours today... Okay, almost 12 hours, closer to 10-but I'm still proud! It's just sheer exhaustion! My incision is completely healed and the hair is covering the hair part. Mom made me a super cute winter headband that is extra wide in the back. Living in Ohio gets cold for about 6 months. Cold air blowing onto my incision site feels like icy air being blown down my spine. It's the weirdest thing to explain but it's even weirder to experience. So the extra wide head band keeps the air from hitting it.

I had a little bit of a headache yesterday. I'm guessing it's what a regular headache is supposed to feel like, but I don't remember how that feels. I haven't had a real headache since the surgery. I also haven't had the shooting stabs with the exception of once. But that is once in like 25 days! I still have the heartbeat in my ear and the shooting numbness when I walk hard or jolt. I have about 90% of my range back and feel pretty good.


I am hoping that the decompression and laminectomy will regulate my hormones and improve conception. It definitely seems to be messing with me! 

Anyways, the picture is actually from yesterday---it's a lot of work to get a good picture back there by yourself! 

Thursday, November 13, 2014

Looking good; Feeling good

Some how the past few weeks have been missed. I have been pretty much in the house (I'm not able to take the dogs out, so I don't really go out unless I'm leaving!) It was so nice yesterday and I looked at the weather and it's never going to happen until spring again! Sadly winter has come. I realize it's the middle of November, but I am stuck at the middle of October.

I am feeling great, much better than I expected. I have pretty good range of motion and not in too much pain. The cold is weird on my incision. It almost feels like an open hole where cold air is blowing down into my spine. My mom said I'm nuts, but it's true! She crocheted me this really wide headband to cover my ears and incision so they don't get all blustery. I'm going to be alone tomorrow afternoon and most of next week. I'm hoping to do some crafting. I still really can't do much cleaning wise (except dusting and really, who does that!?)

There are so many birthdays coming up! My dad's 60th, my 29th, my nephew's first, my brother-in-law's 43rd. The list keeps going. So far I think they're coordinated well. Mom and I watched “God's Not Dead” this morning and I want to buy it but will wait until the price drops a little. I'm not putting a price on God, but I don't want to pay $25 for a DVD now when it will be $15 in a few weeks. Loved the movie! It was very real-world and hopeful.


I'm feeling good and going for fasting lab work tomorrow for my cholesterol and routine labs. Hopefully get that out of the way, renew my driver's license and get my glasses adjusted. It seems where they folded skin to close the incision, it pulled my ears back just a smidge and now my glasses are jabbing the back of my ears. Whew, what a time! 

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Exhaustion



It doesn't feel like a Tuesday night. In fact, I don't know what it feels like. My days are all a mess. The time change hasn't helped either. Over the weekend, I visited my home town and went to a craft show. I made about fifty bucks. I got my stitches out Friday, then we set up. We got up early Saturday to finish setting up. After it was over, we loaded up, went home, and napped. Sunday was church, nap, dinner, bed. Monday was sleep until eleven, visit with grandma, nap, ride home, bed. Today was out for lunch, shop for a few groceries and toiletries, nap, lay around, doze.
I have realized that as the pain subsides, the exhaustion won't be as quick to leave. I have about a two hour “outing” window before I am completely exhausted. Even when I'm not sleeping, I have very little energy. My appetite hasn't come back fully yet. I'm eating regularly, just about half the quantity of what I'm used to eating. I have a horrible dry mouth, most likely from the medications.
My incision is almost completely healed on the outside, which is great! It still feels funny to me and it probably will for a while. I've been trying hair styles other than “Pippie Long-stockings” as hubby calls my pigtail braids. I just can't do any kind of low pony tail because when sitting, it presses into the site. I can do higher ponytails but only for a while because it feels pulling. Pigtails is still the most comfortable! I'm going to have to get my glasses adjusted. I think it's bizarre, but apparently where they have had to fold the skin for the site, my ear is slightly further back so now the stem of my glasses are digging into my ear. Weird!!!
I finally slept in bed for the first time last night! Well, most of the night! I slept there from like eleven last night until like eight this morning before I got too stiff and went to the chair. A huge help has been an older heating pad that doesn't have a timer so that I can leave it on low all night long so I stay a little loose.
I am down to just one muscle relaxer morning and night. And only four Tramadol all day. I'm still taking a slew of stool softeners (I know, TMI) but it's a lot better than having to go, but having to push! I did sneeze once and I didn't hurt myself! I was worried about that!
I go back for my post-op appointment in two weeks from today! It feels like it has gone so quickly! I think that is a positive thing though. I am worried about getting back to work, but I've still got two weeks to think about that! :D I am excited about what this has done for me. I know I haven't discovered the extent of the relief yet, but I'm positive! I went for a walk down the road today and didn't get the headaches. I've stretched a couple times and paused after waiting for the sharpness, but it never came! I've jumped up quickly for the bathroom (see above) and didn't get the sharpness. I also haven't had a migraine in two weeks! YAY!
Have to keep myself slow and steady. Going to relax and enjoy it now... Or try! Naps as often as needed. 

Friday, November 7, 2014

Two Weeks Post Op

I am officially two weeks post-op. I am feeling better than I thought I would be two weeks out, but that also scares me too. I know that I am still healing and that things are still growing and repairing and I'm petrified I am going to feel good, overdo something, and tear or pull something!
I had a minor “overdo” this evening when I stood up/turned too quickly without realizing it. I got the stabbing pain in my forehead but instead of residing, it lingered and that scared me! Also I was (probably a little too) optimistic that I would never feel that pain again. So then I started panicking a little and my neck started hurting. I just freaked and though AH I have torn my dural patch and I'm going to leak out! Well, I took a hot shower, with my husband to help wash and massage my head to help me calm and relax (no frisky business!) That did wonders and I calmed down, took one of my pain pills and I felt fine. I relaxed in the recliner with a heating pad on my shoulders because they've been tense with trying to stretch and turn, etc. Lesson learned---slow down!
I am so thrilled to have my mom here with us. It's a beautiful mix of feeling like a kid again with your mommy here and your best friend moving in with you for a little while. We've not “done” a lot, but it's been great to just sit here and play word games and talk all the time. Luckily the hubs has his man-cave and football season to keep him out of the “hen-house.” It's the most time I have got to spend with my momma since I moved out at 18 for college!
We are planning on doing a craft show on Saturday with my dad helping us set up because I'm not exactly great at lifting or moving (4 pounds is really not much!) I've made some cute twine stars, mason jar lumineers, and hand-painted signs. Mom has some signs, jewelry, and wreaths. I'm going to be spending the weekend there after stopping to get the stitches out and hopefully have my PCP refill or give me new meds. I'm not a huge fan of the Percocet. I just don't like the addictiveness of it as well as having it in our house at all! I feel like Tramadol works just as well for me and it's less scary in my opinion. The Valium works well as a muscle relaxer, but I'm not picky with that, as long as it's something to relax the muscles (I'd be okay with Icy-Hot if it weren't for the giant open wound!)
I just have to keep reminding myself---two weeks ago, someone was tickling your brain! Slow down! I also really enjoyed reading the term “zipper-head!”That made me giggle!

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

My Posterior Fossa Decompression and Laminectomy

Day 13 Post-Op: Finally Getting to Post About Surgery---

I am sad that it's taken me so long to actually post about the surgery, but it's gone by so fast. I had my surgery on 10/24/2014. It was done at OSU Wexner Medical Center. I arrived at 10am for admitting. I was given a gown, gave a urine sample, and relaxed in a bed. I was taken down to pre-op at precisely 11:30am. I was given an IV in my left hand, but nothing was hooked up. I waited about 15 minutes in this bay of several others waiting for surgery. My surgeon came in and told me that they had an emergency surgery that required some of his staff. He reported that the OR was ready and he was ready, but didn't have enough support staff. So they sent me back up to admission where I got to hang out with my family for a while longer and visit... Hungrily, because I had been fasting since midnight the night before. It actually went quickly so it wasn't that bad. I was taken back to pre-op at 2:10pm. I was given another IV in my right hand. I then waited until 4pm when they came to get me. The anesthesiologist actually wheeled me into the OR. They went through several checks, waited for the surgeon's student to arrive, then went through everything. They gave me the oxygen mask and the anesthesiologist told me three jokes: Where does a one legged waitress work? iHop. What do you call a cow with no legs? Ground beef. And how does an anesthesiologist wake up Lady Gaga? Poke her face. HAHA. I laughed then was out cold.

I woke in a recovery room with lots of yellow curtains and beeping. There was a nurse standing next to me and smiled while asking, can I get you anything? I replied “I want that ice they said I could have afterward.” She chuckled and said she would get it for me. She spoon fed me a few pieces of ice and asked me all the “where are you” questions to assess my awareness. I am pretty sure I got them all right. Although she kind of laughed when I answered “why are you here” with for surgery. I mean, it's the truth. Anyways, I was then taken to imaging where I "scooted" to the table for a CAT scan. I only vaguely remember this. Then I was taken to a room on the floor. I have no idea the time that passed.

My family stated that the surgery lasted about 4 hours. I was in recovery for a little over an hour (felt like 5 minutes!) They brought me in the room and my family gathered around and what felt like awkwardly looked at me. While under, they started IV fluids in one IV and had continuous monitoring of my blood pressure in the other one. They inserted a catheter, flipped me on my stomach, held my head in place with pins and went to work.

I actually had to have a laminectomy to remove a part of my C1 vertebrae as well due to the limited space and CSF flow. My first night, I slept well. They kept me well medicated and relaxed but on a clear liquid diet (not thrilled after 36 hours of fasting.) I woke to a breakfast of cold eggs, rubbery hashbrown, and a giant blueberry muffin. My hubby came to hang out as did two of my awesome cousins. My nurse was awesome. She actually sat and combed my massive tangled hair and put it in braids for me. She got called away several times, but kept coming back to finish.

I think it was this night that a friend of mine whose mom is also in the hospital stopped in to say hi. I was pretty doped up and I think it was later in the evening so I'm not really sure! 

My neighbor on the other side of the curtain was a pain in the neck! I felt bad for her because she had rear-ended an empty school bus with her two grandchildren in the car. They were in the back with seat belts and fine. She was pretty banged up. But good grief, she was obnoxious. Every 15 minutes, she was pressing the call button which is loud and beeps in the whole room. She had nurses running in and out to reposition her and move this, get her that, etc.

I asked to be repositioned once but it was excruciating. I could roll and push up with my feet slowly and it didn't hurt. The food for most of the stay was pretty crappy. I only cried once while in there. It was the second night and my needy neighbor kept waking me up. At about 2am, I was hurting pretty bad and pressed the call button and the nurse said she'd be right in. I heard them go to needy nancy next door, but it felt like it was taking them forever to get to me. So when she finally came in with my meds, she felt awful and told me I should have yelled or just kept pushing that button.

The meds were great. I didn't need anything to calm before because I wasn't stressed or nervous or anything. After, the pain wasn't like stabbing, burning pain. It was more of a “slept wrong and got a stiff neck for the past 14 days and now you can't move.” Dilaudid was the most incredible medication for the stiffness.

So I was released on Sunday. They told me I was being released and 25 minutes later, we were wheeling out of there! The ride home was comfortable and I slept a majority of the way home and rested that day. They sent me a prescription of Percocet, Valium, Stool softeners, anti-nausea, and indigestion medications. Several naps every day and a little more movement everyday. I'm rarely taking the Percocet anymore. I take the Valium just in the morning and Tramadol occasionally during the day. I still have to sleep in the recliner because laying flat just isn't comfortable whatsoever. The incision is healing great and I go to have the stitches removed in 2 day! I can't wait because they are itching and pulling and I'm so scared I'm going to get my comb stuck in them.

Today is the first day I haven't napped so I'm pretty proud of that!

I came home on Sunday October 26th. I got home around 3pm. My hubby went to the pharmacy and my mom and dad stayed with me. I got settled in my recliner. The week passed in a blur, things got better everyday. I tried going to church this past Sunday and only made it half way through-holding my head up for an hour straight was a struggle for me. Monday seemed to be a pretty depressed day. I just got to feeling gloomy and depressed. I was sad because no one had come to visit me at home (other than mom staying with me,) no friends or anything. Several people from church dropped dinners off. So I was sad that there were no visitors, no cards, no flowers, or anything. I had a pretty massive surgery. Since then I've gotten probably 10 cards in the mail, a bouquet of flowers from church, and balloons and an arrangement from my mom (cause she knew I was bummed!)

Today I have went all day with no nap and only 2 medication doses. I haven't had a migraine or headache since Thursday before my surgery. I also haven't smoked at all-I joke that it's been so easy due to the morphine in the hospital, pain meds at home, and the inability to drive due to the pain meds. But really the first three days were in the hospital and pretty out of it, so why start again. We are still hoping to start a family soon and I don't want to deal with that or have it interfere with my unborn child!


I go Friday the 7th to have my stitches out by my family physician and I return to my neurosurgeon on November 25th. I can't wait to see how it looks and feels by then!

The first picture is from the day I came home. The second photo is from yesterday, 8 days after returning home.

Monday, November 3, 2014

My Pity Party

Ugh! Apparently the surgery has worked a little because it's definitely messing with my hormones! I have felt like crying since I woke up this morning. First off, I tried sleeping in bed last night. It went great for about 3 hours. Then I got super stiff and hurting so I moved out to my recliner. I slept awesome until about 7am. Then I thought I would try bed again. I gave up at 10 when I felt like Frankenstein. So pretty crappy night and all the stiffness made me hurt pretty bad this morning.
So I took my pain meds (2 Percocet and 1 Valium) with my morning Pepsi. My husband is concerned that I'm going to run out of Percocet and the surgeon doesn't do refills and I don't see my family doctor until Friday. He's also a chemical dependency counselor so he worries about addiction. It's not like I take them all the time or even just every time I can. I only take them when I hurt.
Then there's the concern of money and going back to work. I just got a copy of my FMLA paperwork that has me off work for 6 weeks. I'm more of a go with the flow and God will provide. He's worried about me being off too long and getting too far behind. I'm thinking I'm only like 11 days post-op and don't even want to think about going back to work. Also, after the first 4 weeks, I get 65% of my pay through short term disability, so it would help.
I just feel so lazy and worthless today. I feel like maybe I shouldn't have had the surgery so we wouldn't have these struggles and worries. I feel like maybe it was selfish of me to want relief and putting my family on financial eggshells.

Sorry for the pity party. 

Saturday, November 1, 2014

More Recaps

Holy cow, what a roller coaster! I'd like to start by saying that I have been so lucky and blessed in this venture. Once I found a NL, I was sent to a NS and scheduled for surgery then went in and out. So it's been pretty quick. Well now I'm post-op and it's a new experience for me. I've never had anything more than a cold to recover from. So it started with the hospital and sleeping great from some awesome meds. I had visitors Saturday-my two cousins came to visit with an awesome hospital necessity kit!! They brought real toilet paper, puffs tissues, some chocolate, word search books and pens, chapsticks, etc. It was great!! Then there was the hard part of managing the pain before it becomes unbearable. Figuring out what you can do (which isn't much.) Now my stitches are healing and oh my how they itch. I also have 3 little scabs around my scalp from the stabilizer... And I am totally a picker, but I'm doing great leaving my incision alone. My mom stayed with me for the first week. It was nice and I think hubby liked having someone to help and calm his nerves. She went home for the weekend. Hubs didn't sleep well last night because I was coughing a good bit and he was just worried being alone with me. I've slept most of the day and been rather depressed. It's been one week and one day since my surgery (which really is a big ordeal.) With the exception of my wonderful cousins at the hospital and a card from my grandma, I haven't had any visitors. I feel selfish and stupid for even being upset about it. I was just at least hoping to see some people to keep me busy or have some cards to lift my spirits... :( Hopefully a good nights sleep in the recliners will help. I'm also worried about running out of pain meds because tylenol and ibuprofen helps a little, but it still hurts. My discharge papers say that the surgeons don't refill pain meds and we have to see our family doctors. I couldn't get in to see mine for another week (to also remove the stitches.) I'm hoping they will last that long or she will call some in for me until I can see her. Of course the hubs is worried about me getting addicted, but he's a drug rehab counselor, so it's kind of cute. Today I was trying to wean down from 2 tabs every 10 hours to just one in the morning and one at night. I finally caved and took two this evening. The change in my pain level (6 to a 0) and mood were huge. Hubs said that I acted like I was high, but he was so happy I was laughing.
Anatomically speaking, everything is going great. My incision is healing great. I still can't sleep in bed, but I've figured out the recliner sleeping positions. The pain is usually bearable but the meds help 100%.
***TMI-Stop Reading if You Want!***
The only negative experience is that despite regular medications, extra powders, etc. I am hugely constipated! I haven't had a “movement” in 9 days. I finally opted for suppositories today and had a little bit of one but holy cow!! May have to call the doc about that one... Any suggestions? I've been on Dulcolax, Senna Lax, Mirilax, suppositories, so many vegetables and fruits! I'm still not nauseated or sick to my stomach, but I've eaten small meals three times a day for 9 days! I know there is stuff in there!!!!

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

4 Days Post-Op

4 Days Post-Op:
Whew, it's been a different kind of day. I woke up in a lot of pain, probably around a 7 or 8. So downed the two percocets and a valium. Then I've slept pretty much the rest of the day. We did manage a shower. By that I mean, I showered with help from my mom and hubby to wash hair. They said I could wash, just no direct pressure on the incision area. So I'm clean and combed.
I haven't had much of an appetite. I eat a little here and there. As far as the pain goes, it's just mostly at the incision and its a pulling/dull ache type of pain. In comparison to the constant pressure and internal pain from before, it's manageable. I can't do mu bending, turning, looking up/down and I have some trouble getting up because my neck and shoulders are sore.
For being day 4 post-op, I think I'm doing pretty good. I don' think my caretakers are tired of me yet either. 

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Steam Rolling to The Next Chapter

The next chapter of this lady's life is very quickly approaching. I am so excited. Of course I am nervous, but not about the surgery so much as everything else. I'm nervous about the recovery and how much/little I will be able and feel like doing. I'm nervous I will get all jittery from pain meds (like I do most meds.) I'm nervous about the loss of income for a whole month. It's these things that are nagging, but I also KNOW that God will provide for us just as he always has. I also know that these are the things that are meant to bring me down because I am so content and certain of His hand in the surgery itself. I am so ready to find out the time of the surgery Thursday so that I can begin preparing.

Several have asked what the surgery actually is. I have Chiari Malformation. It is diagnosed by low-lying cerebellar tonsils. It normally doesn't require anything more than monitoring of symptoms. In my case, it causes a decrease of spinal fluid flow out of my brain. When I strain, the flow is completely blocked causing crazy pain and then in turn, slow loss of motor skills, memory, coordination, balance, etc. Eventually the symptoms would mimic MS and Parkinson's disease.

In order to correct the decreased flow of spinal fluid, the surgeon recommended “Posterior Fossa Decompression” surgery. After being sedated with general anesthesia, I will be placed on my stomach and have stabilizing rods placed around my head. They will make approximately a 3” incision in the back of my head around the area of my hairline. They will then move the muscle by pushing it away instead of cutting through it. Then they remove a small 1”x1” piece of the skull bone. This will expose the sac surrounding the cerebellum. They will make an incision in this sac and place a skin patch over it. This will allow for more room for the cerebellum and the CSF flow. Then they place a titanium mesh patch over it in place of the skull bone and stitch it all up.

The recovery is mainly limiting activity to allow time for the stitches to heal and prevent CSF leakage. Then it is regaining the muscular function after they stretched it for the surgery.

I am so excited at the idea of laughing again. Don't get me wrong, I still laugh on occasion now, but it's not a “REAL” laugh. I can't laugh until my sides hurt or I'm out of breath. I really just chuckle. I want to LAUGH again-like we did when we were 13 and playing “steam roller” in a water bed, or having “mud” fights and getting hosed off, THAT kind of laughing! I know most of these are more insider things, but everyone knows what it's like to just laugh hysterically until your face and belly hurt. I can chuckle a little but I have to stop before I get the crazy pains from no CSF flow. I think that's what I'm looking forward to the absolute most.


I am thrilled to move on to a new chapter of my life. I know that God has great things in store for me and I am ready to hit the ground running. I know that He will guide my steps and have everything ready and waiting for me to get there. So I would definitely appreciate prayers including for patience, strength for myself and my family/friends during the procedure, knowledge and surety of the surgeon and care staff, quick healing during the recovery and as always, that I will have all the tools needed to follow His will, not my own. I love y'all and thanks for all your support!

Sunday, October 19, 2014

T Minus 5 days

Today is t-minus 5 days until my surgery! I am so excited and I am ready (metaphorically-I don't have everything ready yet though.) I know recovery is going to probably be slower than I'm used to going, but I am looking forward to standing up without feeling like my head might pop off. I also have trust and comfort that I know God is always by my side and will never leave me.

I have found that once I gave up the false idea that I am in control, I have so much peace and comfort. Day in and day out, I trust that He is with me and guiding my actions, words, and thoughts. I know that everything will work out just right because He doesn't make mistakes. So bring on this Chiari Malformation and watch us turn it all around!

I think for me, the most stressful part is not knowing how to plan the days and weeks after. For instance, am I going to need help nearly 24-7, will I be able to get up and walk around by myself, will I need someone with me most of the times, will I be groggy and sleepy a lot, will I have a lot of medications to keep track of, etc. Also, remembering to get everything I need to pack and take and do beforehand.

I did manage to get my craft room cleaned so there's a far less risk of breaking my neck when I walk in there! I also cleaned up the porch and patio. I've already decided that I'm probably not going to sleep Thursday night. I will be excited anyways, but I also can't take any of my meds. I'm just hoping it won't be at 6am or in the same breath, nor at 2pm. I'm hoping for just normal morning hours.


So far, my key 'remember' items are green blood transfusion band, phone charger, and comfy pajamas/clothes! Three days of work that are probably going to CRAWL

Friday, October 17, 2014

So Many Firsts...

So many firsts....
FIRST of all, the day before yesterday was a first for me. I woke up at 3am with a crazy bad headache. I'd never been woken up by one. So I was up for a few hours, took the meds, and finally went back to sleep. Sadly, I only had 3 more hours of sleep before starting my day. So I was tired and this is a bad thing. Halfway through my day, I threw in the towel, went home, and slept 3 ½ hours to get rid of the headache brought on by being tired. Wow, what a waste of a day!!

Then I was thinking last night in the shower about how many firsts I am looking at overcoming in a week. Starting with the smaller firsts... It will be the first IV I've ever had. It will be the first anesthesia I've ever had (with the exception of a local-I did have one wisdom tooth pulled!) It will be the first time I stay overnight in a hospital. It will be the first time I have stitches. It will be the first time I have staples. It will be the first surgery I have. I know they are doing it carefully and purposefully, but it will be the first “broken bone” that I have (kind of different because it won't be healing and all that though.) So that's a lot of firsts!

It is scheduled for a week from TODAY! I am getting excited. It feels a little like nervous, but I think I'm going to go with excited. I'm already thinking about the stuff that I'm going to pack and things not to remember. I plan to publish my “list” for future reference if nothing else. Then with a lot of plotting and planning I will have a post-op update of things I wish I'd brought and things that I didn't need.

I am praying that it's a late morning surgery. I don't know how well I would do with being there at 5am, no food, no drinks, no anything! They are kind enough to allow me to brush my teeth as long as I spit, not swallow. I also don't want to drag all my family members out of bed in the middle of the night (although I told them they don't all need to be there-they don't listen!) I'm hoping just to keep a small “party” in the waiting area, parents and husband. Of course, I'm not going to tell anyone “no, don't come!” because if they want to be there for me, I will let them. I would just rather they visit that evening or when I come home so I can actually enjoy their company and interact a little. When coming out of recovery, I'm going to be dopey and out of it, probably not even remember that they are there...

Anyways, one more week and I will have a lot more to report on! 

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

In The Beginning...

A new blog for a new chapter.

Chiari Malformation... Such a strange diagnosis and so many questions. So I will start off in the beginning, about two years ago.

I was working in a group home for individuals with developmental disabilities. I had been in this line of work for about 6 years. The basement in the house had flooded several times and have leaking plumbing for waste. I began getting migraines at about 2 a week or so. I blamed these on the fact that there was probably mold growing in the basement. We, at the time, were staying in the basement of my in-laws which was also damp with mildew and some mold. One Saturday, I was doing some deep cleaning and moving furniture to clean the backs of and under them. Immediately after moving the dresser, I got this really sharp headache. It only lasted a few seconds and went away. This began happening randomly when I strained, probably once a day.

I did see my family doctor about the headaches and migraines. She did an MRI. We tried a preventative medication-Topimax. It worked for a very short while and I was up to 4 pills/day and started getting the tingly nose and fingers, so that was the end of that. She prescribed Imitrex for the migraines. The MRI was read and came back as normal with the exception of mild sinusitis. The headaches continued as did the migraines.

About a year after the onset of the weird headaches (I call them ice-pick headaches,) I noticed that I was losing some of my motor skills. I had lost some of my fine motor skills in my fingers and hands. I have always been clumsy but it started getting worse to where I was falling into walls and doorknobs, tripping over nothing, etc. I started losing my short-term memory, anything over about 24 hours that was not totally out of the normal.

Finally after battling these ice-pick headaches and frequent migraines for almost two years, my family doctor referred me to a local neurologist. She was very nice and brought up the MRI images just to make sure. She was baffled the minute she pulled it up because the brain stem was curved significantly. She said she had no ideas as to why, what would cause it, or what it was. She was going to do more research and in the meantime, gave me Elavil to help me sleep. Most medications that make you tired give me a lot of energy and jitters. Benadryl, Codeine, Phenergan, even Tramadol make me energetic and bouncy.

I go back for a follow up with the local neurologist and I don't think she did any research because she was still confused and baffled. She did a referral to OSU Neurology. It takes a while to get in there so in the meantime, she ordered a CT Myelogram. This is a test done where they inject dye into your spinal column and take a CT scan to check for leaks of CSF. This test too, came back normal.

Finally in June of 2014, I made it to OSU to see the Neurologist there. They looked at the local MRI and immediately made the conclusion of Chiari Malformation, or low-lying cerebellar tonsils. They ordered two more MRI's, one was to check the CSF (cerebral spinal fluid) flow and the other of my auditory canal. The ear one is because I actually hear myself breath, chew, pop joints, and even my heartbeat. They also did a referral to Neurosurgery. A couple weeks later, I followed up with the Neurosurgeon and he suggested surgery in the form of posterior fossa decompression surgery. It is now scheduled for the 24th of October. I wanted to save up some leave time and still keep it in the same deductible year.

As for the Chiari Malformation itself, I am not a doctor, but this is what I have gathered from my own research. The diagnosis is a little misleading because many people have the “malformation.” The cerebellum is the small part of the brain that controls “thought-less” actions such as balance, coordination, fine motor skills, etc. It sits in the back bottom of your brain, just above your hairline in the back. The cerebellum also has tonsils, or small pieces that protrude downward. Normally these still remain above the spine. There is (an imaginary) line drawn from the base of the skull to the top cervical vertebrae. This is called the foramen magnum. In people with Chiari malformation, the cerebellar tonsils lie below this line. Many people have the tonsils that lie below the foramen magnum. But if they lie further than 5mm below, they will give the Chiari diagnosis. In my case, my symptoms (the ice-pick headaches, balance, motor skills, etc.) come from a restricted CSF flow. CSF is the fluid that cushions the brain. It is made in the brain, then circulates by gravity and the pulsations of the heart down the spinal column and is eventually reabsorbed into the body. With the low-lying tonsils, the flow is limited. When I strain, it is completely blocked. The headaches are caused by a rush of fluid and drainage. Imagine wrapping a string around your finger tightly, this is the complete blockage of the CSF. The when you quickly remove the string, you get a painful rush of blood into your finger. This is like the return of the CSF flow.

Mine were at 10mm below foramen magnum. The condition itself has no cure or source either. They are unsure how people develop it because most people never have any symptoms. Those that have symptoms generally have no previous MRIs to compare it to. The only treatment of the malformation is posterior fossa decompression surgery. This is a procedure where they surgically remove a small section of the skull bone that covers the cerebellum. They also open the dural sac, which is a small covering over the cerebellum, and place a patch over it to allow the cerebellum to pull up out of the spinal column and back into the expanded room in the skull. This will allow for more room for the tonsils as well as the CSF flow.

I am looking forward to the surgery and I'm hopeful that it will at least allow me to really laugh again. Right now, laughing is one of the things I try very hard not to do because of the pain. More to come later...

But please note: just because someone is given the Chiari diagnosis doesn't mean that they will require surgery. Surgical treatment is used as a last option for management of symptoms. Many people (likely more than documented) live with Chiari for a lifetime with no symptoms. Symptoms vary greatly and are different for everyone. My suggestion is this: if you have migraines, frequent headaches, and other neurological symptoms, demand an MRI and then have it read by a good doctor (generally not found in rural areas) that have a background in neurological disorders!