Tuesday, October 28, 2014

4 Days Post-Op

4 Days Post-Op:
Whew, it's been a different kind of day. I woke up in a lot of pain, probably around a 7 or 8. So downed the two percocets and a valium. Then I've slept pretty much the rest of the day. We did manage a shower. By that I mean, I showered with help from my mom and hubby to wash hair. They said I could wash, just no direct pressure on the incision area. So I'm clean and combed.
I haven't had much of an appetite. I eat a little here and there. As far as the pain goes, it's just mostly at the incision and its a pulling/dull ache type of pain. In comparison to the constant pressure and internal pain from before, it's manageable. I can't do mu bending, turning, looking up/down and I have some trouble getting up because my neck and shoulders are sore.
For being day 4 post-op, I think I'm doing pretty good. I don' think my caretakers are tired of me yet either. 

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Steam Rolling to The Next Chapter

The next chapter of this lady's life is very quickly approaching. I am so excited. Of course I am nervous, but not about the surgery so much as everything else. I'm nervous about the recovery and how much/little I will be able and feel like doing. I'm nervous I will get all jittery from pain meds (like I do most meds.) I'm nervous about the loss of income for a whole month. It's these things that are nagging, but I also KNOW that God will provide for us just as he always has. I also know that these are the things that are meant to bring me down because I am so content and certain of His hand in the surgery itself. I am so ready to find out the time of the surgery Thursday so that I can begin preparing.

Several have asked what the surgery actually is. I have Chiari Malformation. It is diagnosed by low-lying cerebellar tonsils. It normally doesn't require anything more than monitoring of symptoms. In my case, it causes a decrease of spinal fluid flow out of my brain. When I strain, the flow is completely blocked causing crazy pain and then in turn, slow loss of motor skills, memory, coordination, balance, etc. Eventually the symptoms would mimic MS and Parkinson's disease.

In order to correct the decreased flow of spinal fluid, the surgeon recommended “Posterior Fossa Decompression” surgery. After being sedated with general anesthesia, I will be placed on my stomach and have stabilizing rods placed around my head. They will make approximately a 3” incision in the back of my head around the area of my hairline. They will then move the muscle by pushing it away instead of cutting through it. Then they remove a small 1”x1” piece of the skull bone. This will expose the sac surrounding the cerebellum. They will make an incision in this sac and place a skin patch over it. This will allow for more room for the cerebellum and the CSF flow. Then they place a titanium mesh patch over it in place of the skull bone and stitch it all up.

The recovery is mainly limiting activity to allow time for the stitches to heal and prevent CSF leakage. Then it is regaining the muscular function after they stretched it for the surgery.

I am so excited at the idea of laughing again. Don't get me wrong, I still laugh on occasion now, but it's not a “REAL” laugh. I can't laugh until my sides hurt or I'm out of breath. I really just chuckle. I want to LAUGH again-like we did when we were 13 and playing “steam roller” in a water bed, or having “mud” fights and getting hosed off, THAT kind of laughing! I know most of these are more insider things, but everyone knows what it's like to just laugh hysterically until your face and belly hurt. I can chuckle a little but I have to stop before I get the crazy pains from no CSF flow. I think that's what I'm looking forward to the absolute most.


I am thrilled to move on to a new chapter of my life. I know that God has great things in store for me and I am ready to hit the ground running. I know that He will guide my steps and have everything ready and waiting for me to get there. So I would definitely appreciate prayers including for patience, strength for myself and my family/friends during the procedure, knowledge and surety of the surgeon and care staff, quick healing during the recovery and as always, that I will have all the tools needed to follow His will, not my own. I love y'all and thanks for all your support!

Sunday, October 19, 2014

T Minus 5 days

Today is t-minus 5 days until my surgery! I am so excited and I am ready (metaphorically-I don't have everything ready yet though.) I know recovery is going to probably be slower than I'm used to going, but I am looking forward to standing up without feeling like my head might pop off. I also have trust and comfort that I know God is always by my side and will never leave me.

I have found that once I gave up the false idea that I am in control, I have so much peace and comfort. Day in and day out, I trust that He is with me and guiding my actions, words, and thoughts. I know that everything will work out just right because He doesn't make mistakes. So bring on this Chiari Malformation and watch us turn it all around!

I think for me, the most stressful part is not knowing how to plan the days and weeks after. For instance, am I going to need help nearly 24-7, will I be able to get up and walk around by myself, will I need someone with me most of the times, will I be groggy and sleepy a lot, will I have a lot of medications to keep track of, etc. Also, remembering to get everything I need to pack and take and do beforehand.

I did manage to get my craft room cleaned so there's a far less risk of breaking my neck when I walk in there! I also cleaned up the porch and patio. I've already decided that I'm probably not going to sleep Thursday night. I will be excited anyways, but I also can't take any of my meds. I'm just hoping it won't be at 6am or in the same breath, nor at 2pm. I'm hoping for just normal morning hours.


So far, my key 'remember' items are green blood transfusion band, phone charger, and comfy pajamas/clothes! Three days of work that are probably going to CRAWL

Friday, October 17, 2014

So Many Firsts...

So many firsts....
FIRST of all, the day before yesterday was a first for me. I woke up at 3am with a crazy bad headache. I'd never been woken up by one. So I was up for a few hours, took the meds, and finally went back to sleep. Sadly, I only had 3 more hours of sleep before starting my day. So I was tired and this is a bad thing. Halfway through my day, I threw in the towel, went home, and slept 3 ½ hours to get rid of the headache brought on by being tired. Wow, what a waste of a day!!

Then I was thinking last night in the shower about how many firsts I am looking at overcoming in a week. Starting with the smaller firsts... It will be the first IV I've ever had. It will be the first anesthesia I've ever had (with the exception of a local-I did have one wisdom tooth pulled!) It will be the first time I stay overnight in a hospital. It will be the first time I have stitches. It will be the first time I have staples. It will be the first surgery I have. I know they are doing it carefully and purposefully, but it will be the first “broken bone” that I have (kind of different because it won't be healing and all that though.) So that's a lot of firsts!

It is scheduled for a week from TODAY! I am getting excited. It feels a little like nervous, but I think I'm going to go with excited. I'm already thinking about the stuff that I'm going to pack and things not to remember. I plan to publish my “list” for future reference if nothing else. Then with a lot of plotting and planning I will have a post-op update of things I wish I'd brought and things that I didn't need.

I am praying that it's a late morning surgery. I don't know how well I would do with being there at 5am, no food, no drinks, no anything! They are kind enough to allow me to brush my teeth as long as I spit, not swallow. I also don't want to drag all my family members out of bed in the middle of the night (although I told them they don't all need to be there-they don't listen!) I'm hoping just to keep a small “party” in the waiting area, parents and husband. Of course, I'm not going to tell anyone “no, don't come!” because if they want to be there for me, I will let them. I would just rather they visit that evening or when I come home so I can actually enjoy their company and interact a little. When coming out of recovery, I'm going to be dopey and out of it, probably not even remember that they are there...

Anyways, one more week and I will have a lot more to report on! 

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

In The Beginning...

A new blog for a new chapter.

Chiari Malformation... Such a strange diagnosis and so many questions. So I will start off in the beginning, about two years ago.

I was working in a group home for individuals with developmental disabilities. I had been in this line of work for about 6 years. The basement in the house had flooded several times and have leaking plumbing for waste. I began getting migraines at about 2 a week or so. I blamed these on the fact that there was probably mold growing in the basement. We, at the time, were staying in the basement of my in-laws which was also damp with mildew and some mold. One Saturday, I was doing some deep cleaning and moving furniture to clean the backs of and under them. Immediately after moving the dresser, I got this really sharp headache. It only lasted a few seconds and went away. This began happening randomly when I strained, probably once a day.

I did see my family doctor about the headaches and migraines. She did an MRI. We tried a preventative medication-Topimax. It worked for a very short while and I was up to 4 pills/day and started getting the tingly nose and fingers, so that was the end of that. She prescribed Imitrex for the migraines. The MRI was read and came back as normal with the exception of mild sinusitis. The headaches continued as did the migraines.

About a year after the onset of the weird headaches (I call them ice-pick headaches,) I noticed that I was losing some of my motor skills. I had lost some of my fine motor skills in my fingers and hands. I have always been clumsy but it started getting worse to where I was falling into walls and doorknobs, tripping over nothing, etc. I started losing my short-term memory, anything over about 24 hours that was not totally out of the normal.

Finally after battling these ice-pick headaches and frequent migraines for almost two years, my family doctor referred me to a local neurologist. She was very nice and brought up the MRI images just to make sure. She was baffled the minute she pulled it up because the brain stem was curved significantly. She said she had no ideas as to why, what would cause it, or what it was. She was going to do more research and in the meantime, gave me Elavil to help me sleep. Most medications that make you tired give me a lot of energy and jitters. Benadryl, Codeine, Phenergan, even Tramadol make me energetic and bouncy.

I go back for a follow up with the local neurologist and I don't think she did any research because she was still confused and baffled. She did a referral to OSU Neurology. It takes a while to get in there so in the meantime, she ordered a CT Myelogram. This is a test done where they inject dye into your spinal column and take a CT scan to check for leaks of CSF. This test too, came back normal.

Finally in June of 2014, I made it to OSU to see the Neurologist there. They looked at the local MRI and immediately made the conclusion of Chiari Malformation, or low-lying cerebellar tonsils. They ordered two more MRI's, one was to check the CSF (cerebral spinal fluid) flow and the other of my auditory canal. The ear one is because I actually hear myself breath, chew, pop joints, and even my heartbeat. They also did a referral to Neurosurgery. A couple weeks later, I followed up with the Neurosurgeon and he suggested surgery in the form of posterior fossa decompression surgery. It is now scheduled for the 24th of October. I wanted to save up some leave time and still keep it in the same deductible year.

As for the Chiari Malformation itself, I am not a doctor, but this is what I have gathered from my own research. The diagnosis is a little misleading because many people have the “malformation.” The cerebellum is the small part of the brain that controls “thought-less” actions such as balance, coordination, fine motor skills, etc. It sits in the back bottom of your brain, just above your hairline in the back. The cerebellum also has tonsils, or small pieces that protrude downward. Normally these still remain above the spine. There is (an imaginary) line drawn from the base of the skull to the top cervical vertebrae. This is called the foramen magnum. In people with Chiari malformation, the cerebellar tonsils lie below this line. Many people have the tonsils that lie below the foramen magnum. But if they lie further than 5mm below, they will give the Chiari diagnosis. In my case, my symptoms (the ice-pick headaches, balance, motor skills, etc.) come from a restricted CSF flow. CSF is the fluid that cushions the brain. It is made in the brain, then circulates by gravity and the pulsations of the heart down the spinal column and is eventually reabsorbed into the body. With the low-lying tonsils, the flow is limited. When I strain, it is completely blocked. The headaches are caused by a rush of fluid and drainage. Imagine wrapping a string around your finger tightly, this is the complete blockage of the CSF. The when you quickly remove the string, you get a painful rush of blood into your finger. This is like the return of the CSF flow.

Mine were at 10mm below foramen magnum. The condition itself has no cure or source either. They are unsure how people develop it because most people never have any symptoms. Those that have symptoms generally have no previous MRIs to compare it to. The only treatment of the malformation is posterior fossa decompression surgery. This is a procedure where they surgically remove a small section of the skull bone that covers the cerebellum. They also open the dural sac, which is a small covering over the cerebellum, and place a patch over it to allow the cerebellum to pull up out of the spinal column and back into the expanded room in the skull. This will allow for more room for the tonsils as well as the CSF flow.

I am looking forward to the surgery and I'm hopeful that it will at least allow me to really laugh again. Right now, laughing is one of the things I try very hard not to do because of the pain. More to come later...

But please note: just because someone is given the Chiari diagnosis doesn't mean that they will require surgery. Surgical treatment is used as a last option for management of symptoms. Many people (likely more than documented) live with Chiari for a lifetime with no symptoms. Symptoms vary greatly and are different for everyone. My suggestion is this: if you have migraines, frequent headaches, and other neurological symptoms, demand an MRI and then have it read by a good doctor (generally not found in rural areas) that have a background in neurological disorders!